FUCK.
That was the first word out of my mouth when my sister suggested I might be pregnant.
I had called her because my dad passed away 2 weeks before. I was really bloated and I asked her if that could be a symptom of grief. She’s a nurse so she gets all of my weird body questions.
Being pregnant was the last thing on my mind. And the last thing I thought I needed.
I had started an amazing job in April. Closed on our first house in May. Reconnected with my biological father in June. And he passed 3 weeks later.
I was not okay.
The first few months were a blur.
I cried daily for weeks.
There were nights that I barely got out of the building after work before sobbing.
I wanted children, that wasn’t it.
It was not the right timing. It felt like too much. I was deeply grieving.
And honestly I just am a person who needs to feel in control to feel okay. None of this felt controlled at all.
I felt 0% excited until my anatomy scan. I am not exaggerating.
My primary emotions were fear, terror, anxiety…
I struggled through most of my pregnancy that way.
That was in 2018. Since then, I’ve given birth to my first tiny human and had the privilege of watching her grow into herself for 3.5 years.
I am now pregnant with #2 and my headspace is very different than it was then. This kiddo was planned, so that goes a long way.
But so much has happened in the last 4 years that I didn’t realize would be part of my motherhood journey.
I’ve learned tons about car seat safety, choking hazards, baby gear, and developmental milestones. But those are the kinds of things you know are going to come with the territory.
What I never saw coming was that becoming a parent would force me to examine my very identity. That I would have to learn about setting boundaries, again and again and again. That I would be parenting myself through the journey as well as my child. That I would be healing in so many ways.
It also turned out that there were parts of having a baby that I really really enjoyed. Things that I hadn’t even been able to consider when I was completely overwhelmed during my pregnancy.
My work now encompasses all of it.
My clients and I:
Build baby registries
Talk about how to choose a provider and a birth venue
Create a birth plan
Design a postpartum plan
Make a packing list for the birth
Plan the nursery and brainstorm babyproofing needs
But we also:
Discuss what boundaries actually are, how to hold them, and work through all the baggage that tends to come up with doing so
Set priorities so that you don’t get completely burned out
Talk about expectations, prepare for possibilities, and plan for what you desire
Work through fears and anxieties about parenting
Examine mom guilt and banish it
Make sure mom is taken care of so that baby can thrive
Celebrate and reinvent the human who is doing SO MUCH so that you don’t get lost or forgotten
Connect with the spiritual aspects of pregnancy and motherhood
That probably sounds like a lot. IT IS. And every new mom deserves to have high level support as she navigates all of it.
This is work that I’ve been doing in smaller pieces over the last few years and for the first time, I am offering a program that takes a new mom through all of it. From the intense emotions of the first trimester to the reckoning that is the fourth trimester.
I am so proud of what I’ve created and I cannot wait to share it with the women who need it.
I am launching New Beginnings, a container for new moms who want high level support, for pre-sale NOW!
The program is still in beta stage, meaning that I am still building the course content, but weekly group calls are included from the beginning.
The price is cut in half while I continue to build the modules. Membership lasts for a year.
If you are an expecting mom who wants to be held and supported through the next year, let’s talk.
New Beginnings 